Sunday, December 30, 2012

I Want To Be A Stone God Can Use

Today as Bro. Wright talked I kept getting this picture of a bunch of little lumps of dirt being processed into diamonds.  I know we all know this analogy; but I couldn’t get the thought out of my head.  One statement he made today was that most of us aren’t out drinking, smoking, etc…but the process we are in now is the Lord working on our spirit.  AMEN!!!!  It’s that fine tuning process.  That one that gets you to ask the question…why do I do the things I do. 

I kept thinking how that a diamond can be dug out of the earth and them just be placed on a table…yes uncut diamonds are worth something, and it’s wonderful to be cut out of the earth; but that is where some people stop.  Until the diamond is shaped and cut it cannot be used.  A diamond when finished will reflect the precision and talents of the cutter.    

Now there are more than one use for a diamond; but I am thinking of the ones that are placed inside a piece of jewelry.  I came home and began to look up the process of diamond mining.  Here is what I found…

·         The formation of natural diamond requires very specific conditions—exposure of carbon-bearing materials to high pressure.  (In order for a diamond to even begin to form in the ground it is already exposed to heat and pressure.  Those little bitty trials we go through to cause something to begin to grow there.)

·         The ground where the raw material lies is dug up and sent for processing. (The Lord uncovers us and begins to separate us from the world.  Even if we were born and raised in the body…we must first be separated from the world.)

·         There are several steps that the raw mined material must endure before it is cut and polished for display. The first step of processing is to haul the diamondiferous material to the modular processing plant.   (We are hauled to the processing plant…the church that the Lord leads you to.  We must be in the processing plant in order to be processed.  Otherwise we will never be transformed from dirt to useable material.)

·         The conglomerate is put into a large crushing machine and smashed until the crystals are released. This must be done carefully so as to not harm the precious gems.  Milling the material is more suitable for some deposits. Milling is a process where the diamondiferous material is placed in huge rotating drums that contain water. The material slowly disintegrates leaving only raw diamonds.  (The Lord begins to break us down until all that is left is the diamond.  He encourages us…woos us and sometimes must crush us till finally we begin to say yes Lord…)

·         Washing is the next step for removing yet finer diamonds from the abundance of mined diamond ore. The process is best used with another popular separation technique known as screening. Screening is best known from the gold rush days. A screen of known size is places beneath the material as it is tumbled allowing only a certain diameter of particles to pass through.  (Those finer specimens…the ones who have submitted to allow the Lord to begin forming and shaping them are the only ones that remain after this process.  Those that finally are ready to allow the Lord to begin to shape them into the gems they are to become.)

·         Finishing touches:  Once extracted, the diamond must be polished then can undergo a multitude of cuts. Sawing and cleaving the gems is used during the polishing phase. The modern diamond cutter is focused on creating the best, most flawless diamond in the industry to get maximum economic profits. The cutter must first analyze each diamond, by hand, to observe any inclusions. By doing this, the best possible section of the diamond can be utilized when setting in a piece of jewelry.  (Each of us have a specific plan the Lord develops us to shape us into his will.  EACH diamond is analyzed and a plan is formed…the cutter knows just what it will take to cause that diamond to give off the most light.)

·         Mined rough diamonds are converted into gems through a multi-step process called "cutting". Diamonds are extremely hard, but also brittle and can be split up by a single blow. Therefore, diamond cutting is traditionally considered as a delicate procedure requiring skills, scientific knowledge, tools and experience.  (Simply put…the cutter knows what He is doing!!)

·         After initial cutting, the diamond is shaped in numerous stages of polishing. Unlike cutting, which is a responsible but quick operation, polishing removes material by gradual erosion and is extremely time consuming.   (Little by little, day by day.  Little by little in every way.  Jesus is changing me.)

·         When exposed, diamonds exhibit luminescence which can also vary in intensity. (This is a completed diamond…one that when the Lord pulls the curtain back on it will shine and reflect the glory of the Lord.  He’s looking for diamonds that when placed under a microscope will be proven flawless.)

After the message today I cried and thought all the way home for lunch.  They were hard things to hear…it was hard to see myself in the things he was talking about.  I did a lot of thinking.  As I got to church that night and we stood to worship the Lord I began to think…

“Lord, this is going to be really hard.  I’m not sure if I can do this.  But, Lord, we’ve been through some hard places before; not once have you left me alone.  This door way we are walking through may be a little bit more narrow than the one we just went through; but I know that you’re going through it with me…and if I will just say yes Lord…I’ll go, that you will help me drop off a little of that weight so I can fit through just fine.”

You see I know that the fine tuning the Lord is giving me is hard…sometimes I feel like jumping off that table and saying nope…I am DONE; but I told the Lord a longtime ago that I wanted to make the Bride.  When asked the question…what is your greatest fear...honestly it is disappointing the Lord and failing to accept the treasure He is offering; but instead of looking at myself…at all my weaknesses if I can just look at Him.  I’m still here…the Lord has not gotten rid of me yet…that must mean that he still has a plan for me. 

Sis. Leah Miller said this morning she was gonna stop listening to the devil telling her that it was already to late…that she had missed her chance and get busy instead.  I agree. I’ve listened to him…my own discouragement whatever you want to call it long enough.  The devil doesn’t get to decide if I make the Bride…God does and GOD is on MY side!!!!!   Lord let me let go of my will…my wants to make the Bride on my own terms and finally do it on His.

References I used about diamond processing:                              


Monday, June 11, 2012

No Greater Love

This weekend the songs "LOVE" & "No Greater Love" were sung in church and as I listened to it the Lord began to deal with me. 

I had found myself (and I am ashamed to say) comparing my life to other people's lives. 
I actually drove down the road thinking to myself...(no other way to say it; but just to say it) how did I get myself attatched to a man that doesn't like to go go go when I would go go go all the time...and on and on. 

As the song began I actually chuckled to myself at the simplistic answer the Lord began to give me. 

"No greater love hath any man than this
That he would lay down his life for a friend
He laid down His life for us
Now His life abides in us
And together we can dwell in His love"

Can you see how the Lord was talking to me yet?

There is no greater love that I can give to my family than to lay my life down for it.  MY hopes...MY wants...MY ideas...MY desires...those are the life that I can lay down for my husband. 

How does this seem possible?  I may not have the strength to do this!!  But Lord I WANT...I WANT...I WANT...What is the Lord's answer to this?

"He laid down His life for us, now His life abides in us..."

If I can lay down my life for my friend, and use the Holy Ghost to help me find contentment in that, then we can dwell together in HIS love!!! 

So simple :0)

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Hearing His Voice

Sometimes as a momma I wonder if anything I say about the Lord is even soaking into my kids...escpecially since they are so small. Tonight after I prayed with the girls Sophia says very quietly...Mommy I feel Jesus talking to me...I said you do? She got very embarrased; but I told her baby that's so good. You don't have to be embarrased...Jesus talks to those that He loves. If you can hear Him ...that means He loves you very much!! Fought back tears on this one. As I thought about it later I thought sometimes I get so down and wonder Lord do you even know who I those times if I can still hear His voice...I can be assured that He loves me very much. Thank you Lord for speaking to me tonight through my precious baby girl and thank you again for beginning to reveal yourself to my baby girl.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I turned on the t.v. tonight and I listened as the news anchor began to fill my mind with thoughts of the end and "signs of the times".  I felt this thought come into my mind "Time is moving so fast out there...I have so much to do...will I even have time to finish all the Lord has required of me..."  I thought about all the things I fail in and how that sometimes it seems that when I take one step forward I take two steps back.  Something I have been struggling with lately. 
Then a sweet thought entered my mind..."but the Lord loves you...that's what His mercy is for...if you'll keep going HE will make sure that enough opportunities present themselves that you will be able to finish your course." 
I get so discouraged when I fail sometimes that I just give up.  What is it in my nature that causes me to not be able to take it one step at a time?  I can think of a million reasons; but they don't seem to hold much water.
I KNOW what to do...I HAVE the Holy Ghost...I DO see what the Lord is doing right now; but what is it about me that keeps my feet from moving sometimes. 
Why is it so clear sometimes and others I just can't see past the fog?
Lord, I need you.  I can't do this on my own.  I can't MAKE myself serve you in the flesh...I need something out of this world to even put one foot infront of the other.  I don't have the ability to overcome and to lay down the desires of the flesh...but you do!!!  You have the ability to make me what I ought to be.  You have the ability to change my very thinking.  You can put down and raise up.  You can help me turn from my wicked ways never to pick them up again.  I know that it takes a commitment on my part and a willing heart.  It takes chosing you EVERYTIME I come across a situation and not myself.  It takes effort.  It takes consistancy (which I have a struggle with). 
If I make it, it will be because of YOU. 
Lord because of you. 

Change me OH GOD from the creature that I am...

Lord purify my heart...

Don't give up on me yet...

If you'll take one step He'll take two...

Thursday, March 15, 2012

My mind is full and overflowing tonight.  As I read my Bible today, listened to church services in the car traveling, spent the day with God’s people, prayed over my children before they went to sleep; and prayed myself.  I can feel the Lord’s presence so strong.  I am different.  I am not of this world.  I am peculiar some might say.  I am chosen. 

My mind is running faster than I can type; but I will try.  As I prayed tonight I began praying a covering over my children.  I asked the Lord to make them pillars in HIS house someday.  To make Himself real to them in their lives.  To help them choose Him someday.  I asked Him to fill our home with peace and joy and laughter and love.  I asked Him to change me to be a living example to them every day.  To walk before them in the path that I want them to travel.  For them to know that it’s OK to put the Lord first in their lives and that it’s OK to choose Him even if someday their friends choose to do otherwise.  To help me be an instrument that points them to HIM. 

I began to ask the Lord to keep dealing with me.  Keep showing me myself.  To continue to help me fan that flame of belief and zeal to serve the Lord that He planted in my heart so long ago.  Lord, never let me give up on the vision that you’ve given me.  Increase it Lord till it leaves no room left for doubt…disbelief…and yes anything that is not You!!  Fill me up Lord.  Help me to walk with you every day.  Help me to respond to my situations not react.  To stop long enough to THINK about what I’m doing before I do it.  Help me to obey You in every situation that I face.  These are the desires of my heart.

I want to make it.  I WANT TO MAKE IT!!!!  It is not an option for me to turn back, give up; or give in!! Things that were once acceptable to me are no longer acceptable.  They are even becoming distasteful, pointless; and no longer worth my time.  I don’t have any time to spare to give in to those things.  LORD help me hold on to what I am feeling!!!  Don’t let me forget.  Don’t let me fall behind.  When I do make a mistake don’t let me get distracted by my failure; but let me repent, stand up; and start again. 

LORD I WANT TO GO!!!!      

Continue to stir my mind up.  Don’t allow me to get comfortable.  Keep my vision clear, and the places that are not Lord open my eyes.  Lead me Lord.  Guide me.  Strengthen me.  Fill me.  Let me walk with you Lord!!!  Let me learn from the things that I go through.  Open my eyes Lord so I can REALLY see you!!  Keep me Jesus!!  Keep me, keep me, keep me!!!    

Friday, March 2, 2012

The Girl's Bathroom

Our newest renovation.
(a.k.a proof that Phillip and I CAN work together LOL)
Little by little...Day by day :0)

Friday, February 3, 2012

Little S's Surgery

My oldest daughter has had problems with her tonsils for a while.  Every time the weather changes it seems she was getting sick.  Her Dad and I both have terrible allergies and she just got a double dose I think.  We went to the Dentist a while back to get some work done on her teeth and the dentist said that he wouldn't touch her until we took her to have her tonsils and adenoids out.  He said if he put her under that she wouldn't be able to breath because they were so large.  This freaked me out a little.  So on to the ENT the next day.  He was very surprised that she hadn't had trouble sleeping at night because they were so enlarged. was schedule and all of this happened within a week. 
I was scared at the thought of her going through this; but during the whole process I just felt a real peace that the Lord had it under control.  Now you can call it ignorance or anything you want; but I really believe that the Lord will take care of me and mine in any situation.  It may not always come out the way I think it should; but HE knows what He's doing and I really believe I can trust Him!!!

Now to the day of the surgery.  As we got ready I was literally praying without I got things I fixed her hair...put her in the car.  My nerves were setting in.  I knew the Lord had control; but I needed to remind Him :0) 

S dressed in her princess pj's
The little lamb is the one that we had
prayed over and she had in the NICU
when she was born.
We prayed over it again and her blanket
before we went to the hospital this time.

As we were driving to drop off M at a friends house this song came to mind...

"I have a deep settled peace in my soul.
Since Jesus came and He made me whole.
Since He opened my eyes I see
A better way in store for me
I have a deep settled peace in my soul."

And I did.  The rest of the way I knew that I could depend on that deep settled peace. 

When we got to the hospital we got her checked in and then sat down to wait a bit.  Her Mamaw Janet, and Aunt Karen; and Leah Miller came to the hospital to be there with us.  This was a real blessing later as well because it kept my mind off what was going on in the OR. 

Here are some pictures of before she went into surgery:

Showing off her lamb...

Happy Juice time :0)

Being funny...


Cracking us up...

She thought this was funny...

Lovin' on her Mamaw :0)

After this picture we laid her back down in her bed...wrapped her in her little blanket...gave her kisses and they wheeled her away.  At that very moment I felt like grabbing her off the bed and running out the door.  I was so scared.  Scared something would happen to her...scared that maybe God had an outcome for her that I wouldn't understand...scared that she would be scared...all kinds of thoughts going through my head!!!  I practically ran out the door because I didn't want to hear her crying for me or I might lose it. 

We waited in the waiting room for about 30 minutes or so and the doctor came out to let us know that all went well and she was sleeping.  They would come and get us when she woke up. 

I can't tell you what it was like to walk into her recovery room.  I was alone because Phillip went to pull the car around and when I walked in there was a nurse on either side of S holding her arms and rubbing her back.  She was crying softly and when she saw me she started wiggling to get to me.  The nurses said she had fought them when she woke up; but when I got there she had already given up.  I thought this was the saddest thing.

She was very disoriented and clung to me like a scared kitten.  She would whimper and I would talk to her...the one thing that really calmed her was me praying for her.  It was no big long prayer...all I could say was Jesus Jesus Jesus...and rub her back until she came around.  That was enough.

We tried to get her to drink a little and she did.  She also ate a little bit of Popsicle although she was a little put out because it wasn't red :0) 

When she started to really wake up she started asking for her Mamaw so Phillip left and got her.  When she came in that was the first time she smiled!!  From there it was better. 

As we drove home she would just cry sobs...just tears.  She didn't understand what was going on.  Once I heard her mumble something and I asked her to repeat it if she could.  She said "You weren't there."  I said "yes I was...I was right outside the door."  She said "you weren't there when I woke up."  My heart broke in a million pieces!!!!  They wouldn't let me be there when she woke's not like the movies y'all!!  I had to control myself from crying and try to explain to my 4-year-old that the hospital wouldn't let me; but as soon as she started to wake up they ran and got me.  Not sure if it sunk in; but I hope so.  :o( 

As for our journey now...

Day 1Arby's.  Go figure I have the only kid in the world that cries because she gets to eat ice cream for a week!!!  LOL!!!  She slept well and didn't wake at all. 

Day 2 - Still good - Eating and drinking fine.  Still mad because she has to eat pudding etc...Lord help us!!!  She slept a lot on this day. 

Day 3 - A little cranky; but still doing well with the drinking and eating.  Ate Mac n Cheese and eggs today.  For Dinner went to Mamaw and Papaw's and had some more mac n cheese and played.  Trying so hard to keep her still; but not happening very much.

Day 4 - OK here it goes!! - She is very cranky and I am having to encourage her to drink.  Last few days she has kind of done it on her own.  She did ok eating for breakfast and lunch.  When she woke up from her nap she was crying because her mouth hurt.  She is feeling the pain a lot more today.  I am thinking it must be healing. 

I do want to thank all of you who have said prayers for our little girl.  I know that it is the prayers of God's people that are giving her the strength to make it through this.  Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!!!!

More updates to come.   

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Whatever It Takes

We had a really good service last night!!  (Oak Forest 1-15-2012)  Good testimonies and songs, and Bro. Wright did a great job talking about hearing the Lord’s voice and being willing to obey it.  He really lined it out for us. 
Sis. Lydia followed it up by a pretty song with some hard words…”Whatever it takes for my will to break…”
I tend to have a really hard time singing songs like that because I immediately think of my kids and I can hardly hold them and sing “Whatever it takes”.  It’s just too much to even think about.  As I was texting some this last night it’s almost like I am saying “Lord, whatever it takes…that you have to do to me…but not my kids Lord”.  This is something I have always struggled with. 

This morning I was thinking about the service…and about that feeling…the thought hit me…”He’s not requiring that right now.”   I felt the HOLY GHOST all over!!!  He is not requiring that of me right now.  What is the Lord asking me to do RIGHT NOW??  It’s not the big bad hard things right now.  It’s the little things.  Things that should be easy to do.
He’s requiring me to turn off the television…turn off the computer…read more…pray more…be kinder to my children…to my husband…watch how I respond to things…these are some of the things the Lord is dealing with me about right now.   

Instead of getting so distracted by all the things the Lord MIGHT require of me someday I need to focus on the things He IS requiring right now.  They are not big in the grand scheme of things; but really they are because if I can’t obey in these little things I for sure won’t be able to obey when the BIG things come around.  I need to instead   1) Listen for the Lord’s voice in my life   2) OBEY – not try to talk myself out of it, or ignore it till it goes away; but OBEY!!! 

Monday, January 23, 2012

Easiest Queso EVER!!

This wonderfully delicious recipe came from my wonderful mother in law.  I'm not sure where she got it from; but it has quickly become my most favorite queso recipe.


1 8oz. package of cream cheese (softened)
1 can of cheddar cheese soup
1 can of rotel

You slowly on low heat melt the cream cheese (on the stove or in the microwave)

Add the cheddar soup straight from the can (no water needed)

Add the entire can of rotel - juice and all (you can blend it if you don't want the chunks of tomatoes)

And that's're done!!!  Go grab a bowl and dig in!!  YUMMY!!!

Salsa Recipe

Ok...I think I have found the greatest recipe in the world for salsa...ok maybe not the WORLD; but it's pretty good!!!

My husband loves Pappasitos salsa and I have attempted in the past to make some; but it just never tasted quite right.  Until now!!!  :0)

Ingredients:  (Ingredients I used - website has a little different spices)
8 whole tomatoes
1 small yellow onion - diced
1 Jalapeno pepper
1 Poblano pepper
1/2 tsp. Celery Salt
1/8 tsp. Oregano
1/4 cup Fresh Cilantro
1/2 tsp. Sugar
1/4 tsp. Garlic Powder
1/4 tsp. Black Pepper
1/2 tsp. Salt

Also - the recipe on the website calls for 1/3 - 3/4 cup of water; but I found that I didn't need any water added.  Adding the extra water would have been too much.

I take no credit for this recipe at all because all I did was follow the directions.  I did tweak a few things to fit my taste and added an extra jalapeno for a little more heat. 

1 jalapeno - mild
2 was just right
3 eye - chi - wau wau :0)

Another secret is to use FRESH ingredients.  Don't buy your stuff till the day you're going to make it.  It will taste ok if you have to wait; but it tastes so much better if they're fresh. 

You start by coring and de-seeding 1 Poblano pepper and your jalapenos (however many you choose)

Heat a large skillet on medium (4 or 5)

When heated spray skillet with PAM and drop in peppers.  Stir and cook till till they are brown on both sides.  You might have to re-spray pan a couple times during the whole process. 

When they are brown add your tomatoes (WHOLE tomato except for the hard part the stem sticks in - I do not know the technical term)   The recipe calls for Roma tomatoes...I prefer vine ripened.  I have used both and I think that the Vine Ripened has a better flavor when roasted. 

Next, when your tomatoes have browned on several sides remove the skillet from heat and add your onion (diced).

Sure wish you had smellavision :0) YUMMY!!!

While the onions are warming go ahead and put your seasonings into your food processor. 

Next, add your cilantro and slowly spoon the vegetables into your food processor. 
I only did a little at a time so that it all mixed well. 

Next poor it back into the skillet and heat for 3 minutes to warm it all back up good...

And vuala...

yummy yummy :0)

Thank you copykat!!!!  Hope you enjoy!!!

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

"You can have two people sitting right beside eachother...have the same experiences in the Lord...filled with the same Holy Ghost...It's not just that you have the Holy Ghost...It's what you do with it!!!" 
Bro. Troy Coldwater 
He stated this among many many good thoughts tonight!!  Lord, let me have enough faith in you to put my Holy Ghost to work for the purpose that it was given overcome the lay down this old strive for the Bride for which I've been called!!!! 

Monday, January 9, 2012

Ain't God Good

Tonight we had an amazing service.  From start to finish the Lord was there.  To give you a little summary…the band played “The Blood Will Never Lose Its Power” and the Holy Ghost moved in.  From there the song service continued in like manner.  The testimonies began to echo the channel of the goodness of the Lord.  Soon a young lady stood to her feet and said “We can say this phrase the proper way; but she liked to say AIN’T GOD GOOD, better!!!!!”  We began to sing the song

Well ain’t God good…To Give us so many blessings…undeserving is what we are!!!  We ought to thank Him…Love and praise Him…a little more today and a whole lot more tomorrow!!!!

From then the Holy Ghost began to move in a mighty way as people began to express the GOODNESS of the Lord!!!  I’m telling you with each and every testimony my spiritual bucket got fuller…and fuller…and FULLER till I thought I was just going to POP!!! 

I didn’t feel to add my testimony to the service; but as I lay in bed tonight (going back and forth between praying for some of my friends who are in desperate need tonight and hearing that song ringing over and over in my head) I kept thinking Lord you’ve been so good to me.  So many things, and then the Lord brought back one time that was a significant turning point in my life.  So…I had to get up and write it down.  You see…these are things I NEVER want to forget.

When I was 15 years old…some of you know this; but some of you may not.  When I was 15 my mother was killed in a car accident.  As if the Lord bringing me through the grief of that wasn’t enough…there is a little more to this story.  At this time in my life I was very much into school activities.  I was in a #1 nationally ranked marching band, a part of an exclusive music academy, winning awards left and right for my flute; and to top it all off I had a boyfriend in school who respected my moral standards and had declared his desire to marry me.  I was going to church; but not IN church.  Once again I was 15. 

One normal June day my mother asked if I wanted to go with her to work.  I went to bed that night with the intention of getting up and going with her the next day.  Now whether my alarm didn’t go off or not, for some reason I did not get up.  As I finally made my way out of bed my mother was just about to walk out the door.  I don’t remember much about that day; but we did argue and I begged her to wait for me.  She was already late so she did not.  Later that evening a state trooper came to our door and informed us that my mother had been in a car accident earlier that day.  I was supposed to be in that car.  The gravity of this fact didn’t hit me till a few years later when I was able to process this.  The Lord…for whatever reason saw fit to spare me.  Yes I lost my mother, and yes I may never understand why; but in that one instant my life changed. 

After that day the Lord slowly began to cut my ties with the world that I had become so wrapped up in.

My boyfriend who had been in Mexico for his senior trip had come home 2 days after this and the first words out of his mouth were “I hope this doesn’t affect our relationship”.  Comforting huh!!!!  I was so in love…and so stupid!!!!  I assured him that it wouldn’t; but in the back of my mind the Lord was already beginning to cut that tie.   

After the funeral I left my mother’s grave…got on the church bus…and ended up in Dallas, TX for a tent youth meeting.  In that meeting I went down front for prayer.  From the moment the ministry began to pray for me I don’t remember what happened.  I came to…lying on the ground…surrounded by the people of God…covered in dirt…speaking in tongues!!!!!!  I have never had an experience like that ever again; but it is one I will NEVER forget!!!!  Something had been changed.  The Lord had come on the scene and I was never to be the same again!!!!!!!

When I got home from that meeting you know who was waiting for me.  When he showed up at my door I felt this coldness toward him.  I don’t know any other way to describe it.  As we talked somehow we got on the subject of church and how many services we have.  I know it was the Lord.  He responded to something I said by saying “I don’t mind if you go to church on Sunday; but I really don’t think you need to go any more than that.”  I felt that last string that had tied him to my heart pop with a loud…solid SNAP.  I told him “Well, I AM going to go whenever I want and it’s more important to me to do what the Lord wants me to do than to be with you.”  There were more words exchanged and he finally got angry and stormed out.  When we got to the front door of my house he turned around and asked “so you really feel like GOD is asking you to break up with me”. I said “yes I do” and I shut the door.    I tell you that it was the Lord that did that for me.  He knew more than I did what would lie ahead if I had stayed with him.  I never cried.  I never even gave him a second thought.  The Lord took him completely out of my heart and set my feet on the path that HE wanted for me.

By the time I graduated I had little or no contact with the people that were considered my closest school friends.  I didn’t go where they went, and do the things they did anymore.  I was no longer in band and really spent all my time trying to pass my classes and get out of there!!  I was a different person.  My one and only good friend that stayed my good friend through all this come to find out a couple years after high school had married the local drug dealer and had several children.  I would also find out around the same time that my so called “faithful” boyfriend and my so called “good school friends”, would drop me off at home (from a night of going out to eat and a movie) and go get slap drunk and high on all kinds of stuff for the rest of the night.  I was shocked because never once did I even see any of them smoke a cigarette or anything around me.  The LORD kept me covered.  He kept evil away even when I didn’t even know to be worried.    


AIN’T GOD GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!