Sometimes the Lord says NO…
Sometimes we get a wait…sometimes a yes…sometimes it’s not
the right time; but sometimes He just says no.
Sometimes to things we want…places we want to go…our own ideas…relationships…OUR
plan for our life. He always can see the
bigger picture…even if when He tells us no, we may not see it at all.
I think for the most part the no’s have been small and easy
to comply with…maybe because I can see Him working and I understand that His way
is best. At those times I could almost
feel the Lord backing me up as I let go.
I knew without a shadow of doubt that it was the right thing for me to
do. There are other times (like I told
someone the other day) that He knows that it’s really going to hurt so that
band aid can’t be just ripped off; but it has to be taken off slowly…so it
causes less damage :0)
I feel like for a while I have been in the process of having
one of those band aid’s removed. The
story would take forever to go into; but suffice it to say I had an experience
where I felt that last little piece of adhesive snap. The only thing I felt at the time was
sadness. It’s one of those things that I
really didn’t see the harm in it until the Lord began to show me how much of my
attention I was giving it. It consumed
my thoughts…my emotions…everything almost.
I couldn’t find the joy in my own life because I was always worried
about it. I know…your curiosity is up
:0)
I can see the path that the Lord has led us on for the last
couple of years…I’ve testified about some of it…and in the middle of it you
couldn’t have told me that this is where I would be. I wouldn’t have believed you and I would’ve
been terrified…but as faithful as the Lord is He allowed me to go through in
baby steps…comforting me…encouraging me…and letting me know that most of all He
is there and always will be. I know that the process of overcoming is hard; (He never promised that it would be easy…He did promised that it would be worth it) but I know I can make it!! I know without a shadow of a doubt if I will keep putting one foot in front of the other…and keep my hand in His…that He will shine a light of truth on my path and one day I will step into the fulfillment of His promise for me!! I may not be able to see everything that I will walk through and at the time I may feel like whining all the way; but if I can just keep going…keep striving…keep working…keep pressing…I will understand it all when I make it through. I have to trust those little nudges the Lord gives me and trust the hand that I feel in my back…and trust that HE knows exactly what I need.
I’ve included a song that the Lord gave me during this…it was a hard one to write down and even harder to sing; but I believe it is my heart. I’ve tried it my way and my way just doesn’t work. I’d like to try it His way. Even if sometimes He says no :0)
Where He Leads
Ch. I thought I
could be what I wanted to be
I
thought I could build what I wanted to build
But
life’s sinking sand has taught me this
That to
be where He leads is where I want to be.
V1. On this
road I’ve gone I’ve learned many things
I’ve
seen joys and peace and many splendid things
But one
thing I’ve learned more than anything
That
without the Lord I can’t do anything
V2. The
pleasures of life can deceive for sure
For
just a small time your peace will endure
But
once they are done and your joy is gone
You
will seek for the one your soul to restore.
V3. To be in
His will more than ever before
To know
without doubt that my heart is pure
A
spirit within that will not sin
And a
life that lives to glorify Him.
D W Feb.
2013
