Sunday, December 30, 2012

I Want To Be A Stone God Can Use

Today as Bro. Wright talked I kept getting this picture of a bunch of little lumps of dirt being processed into diamonds.  I know we all know this analogy; but I couldn’t get the thought out of my head.  One statement he made today was that most of us aren’t out drinking, smoking, etc…but the process we are in now is the Lord working on our spirit.  AMEN!!!!  It’s that fine tuning process.  That one that gets you to ask the question…why do I do the things I do. 

I kept thinking how that a diamond can be dug out of the earth and them just be placed on a table…yes uncut diamonds are worth something, and it’s wonderful to be cut out of the earth; but that is where some people stop.  Until the diamond is shaped and cut it cannot be used.  A diamond when finished will reflect the precision and talents of the cutter.    

Now there are more than one use for a diamond; but I am thinking of the ones that are placed inside a piece of jewelry.  I came home and began to look up the process of diamond mining.  Here is what I found…

·         The formation of natural diamond requires very specific conditions—exposure of carbon-bearing materials to high pressure.  (In order for a diamond to even begin to form in the ground it is already exposed to heat and pressure.  Those little bitty trials we go through to cause something to begin to grow there.)

·         The ground where the raw material lies is dug up and sent for processing. (The Lord uncovers us and begins to separate us from the world.  Even if we were born and raised in the body…we must first be separated from the world.)

·         There are several steps that the raw mined material must endure before it is cut and polished for display. The first step of processing is to haul the diamondiferous material to the modular processing plant.   (We are hauled to the processing plant…the church that the Lord leads you to.  We must be in the processing plant in order to be processed.  Otherwise we will never be transformed from dirt to useable material.)

·         The conglomerate is put into a large crushing machine and smashed until the crystals are released. This must be done carefully so as to not harm the precious gems.  Milling the material is more suitable for some deposits. Milling is a process where the diamondiferous material is placed in huge rotating drums that contain water. The material slowly disintegrates leaving only raw diamonds.  (The Lord begins to break us down until all that is left is the diamond.  He encourages us…woos us and sometimes must crush us till finally we begin to say yes Lord…)

·         Washing is the next step for removing yet finer diamonds from the abundance of mined diamond ore. The process is best used with another popular separation technique known as screening. Screening is best known from the gold rush days. A screen of known size is places beneath the material as it is tumbled allowing only a certain diameter of particles to pass through.  (Those finer specimens…the ones who have submitted to allow the Lord to begin forming and shaping them are the only ones that remain after this process.  Those that finally are ready to allow the Lord to begin to shape them into the gems they are to become.)

·         Finishing touches:  Once extracted, the diamond must be polished then can undergo a multitude of cuts. Sawing and cleaving the gems is used during the polishing phase. The modern diamond cutter is focused on creating the best, most flawless diamond in the industry to get maximum economic profits. The cutter must first analyze each diamond, by hand, to observe any inclusions. By doing this, the best possible section of the diamond can be utilized when setting in a piece of jewelry.  (Each of us have a specific plan the Lord develops us to shape us into his will.  EACH diamond is analyzed and a plan is formed…the cutter knows just what it will take to cause that diamond to give off the most light.)

·         Mined rough diamonds are converted into gems through a multi-step process called "cutting". Diamonds are extremely hard, but also brittle and can be split up by a single blow. Therefore, diamond cutting is traditionally considered as a delicate procedure requiring skills, scientific knowledge, tools and experience.  (Simply put…the cutter knows what He is doing!!)

·         After initial cutting, the diamond is shaped in numerous stages of polishing. Unlike cutting, which is a responsible but quick operation, polishing removes material by gradual erosion and is extremely time consuming.   (Little by little, day by day.  Little by little in every way.  Jesus is changing me.)

·         When exposed, diamonds exhibit luminescence which can also vary in intensity. (This is a completed diamond…one that when the Lord pulls the curtain back on it will shine and reflect the glory of the Lord.  He’s looking for diamonds that when placed under a microscope will be proven flawless.)

After the message today I cried and thought all the way home for lunch.  They were hard things to hear…it was hard to see myself in the things he was talking about.  I did a lot of thinking.  As I got to church that night and we stood to worship the Lord I began to think…

“Lord, this is going to be really hard.  I’m not sure if I can do this.  But, Lord, we’ve been through some hard places before; not once have you left me alone.  This door way we are walking through may be a little bit more narrow than the one we just went through; but I know that you’re going through it with me…and if I will just say yes Lord…I’ll go, that you will help me drop off a little of that weight so I can fit through just fine.”

You see I know that the fine tuning the Lord is giving me is hard…sometimes I feel like jumping off that table and saying nope…I am DONE; but I told the Lord a longtime ago that I wanted to make the Bride.  When asked the question…what is your greatest fear...honestly it is disappointing the Lord and failing to accept the treasure He is offering; but instead of looking at myself…at all my weaknesses if I can just look at Him.  I’m still here…the Lord has not gotten rid of me yet…that must mean that he still has a plan for me. 

Sis. Leah Miller said this morning she was gonna stop listening to the devil telling her that it was already to late…that she had missed her chance and get busy instead.  I agree. I’ve listened to him…my own discouragement whatever you want to call it long enough.  The devil doesn’t get to decide if I make the Bride…God does and GOD is on MY side!!!!!   Lord let me let go of my will…my wants to make the Bride on my own terms and finally do it on His.

References I used about diamond processing: