I am a person that is very hard on myself. I feel like I KNOW the teachings of this Body and so that leaves no excuses for mistakes. I am working on this. As well as being hard on myself I have realized that I expect the same of my husband and my children. I know that these are unrealistic expectations and I am working on that as well. In all of my soul searching the last few months I have realized that I can be very merciful and patient with others; but when it comes to my husband and my children I am critical and harsh. This realization is nothing short of painful for me. To realize that you have hurt the people closest to you is heart breaking to say the least. I have been trying to rebuild this relationship; but have found that sometimes the only thing that I can do is pray and keep my mouth SHUT!!! I have watched my daughter Sophia and she wants to please me so much and I want her to know more than anything that I love her and accept her. I have the job as her mother to help shape her confidence in herself. I want her to believe in herself. Both of my girls. And my poor husband...he works so hard to provide not just our needs; but all of our wants. He does a great job and I spend 90% of my time pointing out his flaws instead of praising him for the good he does. Lord help me!! This brings me to the title of this post. I was online and looking at one of my favorite sight's and this was the article that popped up.
It is something that I think I am going to try. For the details click on the link; but I wanted to post it in case others were interested.
I will try to post any interesting things that occur. Hopefully I will regain the trust and confidence from him that I so desire. I am determined that if I will let the Lord help me HE WILL!!! (Per my Aunt Karen =) He has already so many times before!!
**Day 3 - So far so good. I have been doing my best to NOT say anything negative to Phillip or about Phillip. This has been really encouraging because instead of focusing on the negative I have been looking for the positive. It is amazing how this has changed MY outlook. We have had a few very pleasant days. I am excited to see what the rest of the month holds!!